City of Dreams

Since high school, I dreamed of moving to Boston. My original plan was to go to Boston College. But laziness (and a high school sweetheart) diverted my dream and I ended up at a Long Island state university. Then, the same high school sweetheart (turned fiance, now ex-fiance) and I planned to move to a Boston suburb so he could pursue a job with his dream company. That position never came to fruition, we broke up and I moved to Texas.

And 4 years later, I now have an opportunity to move to Boston. For some odd reason, I found myself surfing Boston's craiglist... well, not so odd a reason... I was unbelievably bored at work... and happened upon a job posting.... which I jokingly applied to. The recruiter called me the next morning, to my great surprise. In fact, I have an interview tomorrow with a large insurance firm managing a diversity and intern program.

But I don't think I'm going to go. I don't know if I'm ready to leave the Big Apple. I've only been back for 2 years and, funny enough, I barely remember life outside of NY.

Reasons to move to Boston:

• I'm still young
• A new city full of men I've never encountered
• Maybe I'll become a Red Sox fan (Johnny Damon is hot!)
• Cheap rent
• A new city to explore
• I love Irish pubs (and Irish men)
• A fresh start (in a life that has started becoming somewhat stagnant... work... bars... work... work... books... work... work... gardening)
• Close enough to dear old mom and dad
• It's a small city where I would feel safe at night

Reasons not to move:

• I don't know a soul there (that didn't stop me from moving to Texas)
• I love living with the parents (cheap rent - yes, I pay rent, home-cooked meals most of the time, I've been able to build a good relationship with them)
• It's another big company... I don't especially love working in HUGE companies
• It would mean recruiting... again... which I've done... which I don't know if I want to sort through millions of resumes right now...
• I don't know if I would be learning anything new
• They don't pay for relocation which just blows
• I might start partying hard again... like in Texas... to keep my mind off how lonely I was...
• Partying hard leads to sleeping around... which can be good and bad... but, right now, that's not what I'm interested in...

I don't think I'm going to the interview tomorrow. I better email them now to cancel. Right now I feel as if all I have is work, my family and friends. It doesn't make sense to leave them for a job that won't even advance my career.

But, one day... One day...